I've spent the last month or so in a reflective mood, looking back over about 50 years. I'm 59 now. I was 9 when I witnessed a school friend have a very traumatic death and the experience did most certainly change my life course and somehow gave me a series of 'triggers' whereby I was instantly taken back, at whatever age after 9, into the emotion of that experience. It still happens now, 50 years later.
I always have found it hard (read 'impossible) to talk about or write about because to do so brings back that exact emotion that overwhelmed my consciousness at that early age, when I had not developed any way of understanding it at all.
If anyone else has had this kind of stark trauma either to themselves, or have witnessed such trauma, and I'm sure many millions of people have had this in one form or another, I have found that it is worth reflecting upon the course of one's life since that experience.
I wish us all well and I welcome any comments people may have about the experience of such an event.
One thing I would have liked to have had was always a way to communicate what had happened that was a safe way. I think I needed some kind of guide to be with me when these 'emotional storms' came to me and suddenly rendered me 9 again with all the child-nature of that age.
Kind regards John
Yes, bright and open minded and generally happy with the work done, with a broad sense of humour, although noting some big errors of judgment...with the notion that God never makes mistakes a bit of a silly arrogance; still, a Great Being not living in the past...thus a bit like....hmm....a bit like.... me; come to think about it...
I find the great books of the great religions far too serious in so many ways. Look around, there is real humour in the world, yet none of this seems to be reflected in any of the great books of God at all. Being so serious all the time, eon upon eon, goodness me, where is the fun in that? Fun sparks the Creative far more than righteous role and misery.
I would imagine that if God was a worldly type King then he would have, at his right hand, not Jesus or Mohammed etc but rather the court Jester as his best adviser about these quirky difficult yet sometimes lovely and oft times meaningful humans...these creatures, many with big brains and big hearts yet nothing much that they do with them apart from making up really silly religions.