after yesterday's gruelling job interview rehashing old clinical events i tend to think that maybe my occasional profound social phobia may not in fact be due to an old PTSD witnessed trauma event when 9 but rather due to all the stuff that happened over that working lifetime caring for others. The social phobia has always pretty well related to not wanting to go to work...ah! understandable. A little insight, wow, after all these years. Whilst acknowledging the traumas one goes through when young is important, the ones that come later on can be pretty awful too. Cool. Insight. Anyway, off to a night shift soon. Damn. Maturity does not arise because of the years, it arises because of the damage.

Noting the head of a very very big private hospital empire in Australia has been cordially invited to come along and talk to the Federal Government about concerns regarding over-charging, but the fellow says he can't attend as he is busy.

New Conference, Federal (Liberal) Energy Minister announcing an Energy Policy in Adelaide without telling the South Australian Premier (Labor) about it...so the SA Premier turned up, and the two of them stood there next two each other noting that the other was a total failure, whilst sharing the same microphone. Most interesting thing that has happened in Australian Politics since 1975. Both in immaculate suits, both with a nodding head of support behind each of them as they basically ripped into each other, in gentlemanly ways...then following the fiasco, each, in their immaculate suits got into their limousines and drove away. Real Politics. Not happy families.

I think the best thing to do with the news is to enjoy it as the entertainment it is designed to be...but you don't have to go about believing in fiction just because fiction says its true. the thing is simply that you've got to work this stuff out for yourself. There is no guide and there is no reported truth, per se...start there, and go about the world. You will do well this way.. Be true.

The News? The Not-Fake News?Question it. Hardly any of it stands up to any scrutiny.Maybe the weather, but the rest is far more unreliable than even that. Always has been.

I think the general notion is this ...something is very wrong (and it is...90% of the world's common wealth was stolen in 2008...so everyone else is poorer and will remain poorer for at least another ten years) so we must blame someone, preferably someone who has a different belief and/or looks different...thus Muslims. (Before them it was Chinese, and will be again)..."I have enough problems working out my job, my wife/husband and kids, for fucks sake, just give me someone I can blame without having to think..." Thus Islam, thus, soon, China. We are so Smart. the trouble with blame and hatred is that it costs us a lot more as time goes by. We pay out a lot for simply not being willing to think...and that makes us poorer still.

I think the general notion is this ...something is very wrong (and it is...90% of the world's common wealth was stolen in 2008...so everyone else is poorer and will remain poorer for at least another ten years) so we must blame someone, preferably someone who has a different belief and/or looks different...thus Muslims. (Before them it was Chinese, and will be again)..."I have enough problems working out my job, my wife/husband and kids, for fucks sake, just give me someone I can blame without having to think..." Thus Islam, thus, soon, China. We are so Smart. the trouble with blame and hatred is that it costs us a lot more as time goes by. We pay out a lot for simply not being willing to think...and that makes us poorer still.

Daughter asked what is Shock Doctrine? I replied it is some neo-liberal wank, an emotion of the self important, prescribed onto others... it is best if you just kill these people. It is best for all. It is best for the collective.