The Blog Matures...about Life on Earth/ Palliative Care/Letting Go, Holding On, and the General Experience of Love and the Transcendent

I've been enjoying this blog, adding lots of things I find interesting, inflammatory, and sometimes humorous to it.
 
I think it will now mature into a more cohesive and less 'eclectic' vehicle for the things I'd like to say and discuss.
 
I really appreciate that people from the USA, Australia, China, Russia, Nigeria etc find it interesting enough to visit. I appreciate this generosity of strangers in alleviating, in some ways, my basic loneliness.

I remain an Atheist who finds the transcendent moments in life so very wonderful and inspiring.

My life has changed, as time has gone by, and especially in terms of my work-life. I have moved away from clinical palliative care and I'm grateful for the lesser burden that the change has brought. I think we can 'lose our own life in care' and that isn't necessarily a good thing for anyone to do, really.

A more highly evolved man or woman could do so, I'm sure, and find meaning in absorption in the care of others, of strangers etc but for me it has led me at times to be a very angst ridden and bitter man and I don't like that dimension at all. I'm happy that bitterness is fading.

I did that work well and remain personally responsible for the 'bringing into being' a very good small Hospice which does wonderful work every day, or usually does wonderful work every day, in in-patient and out reach services...for more than a decade now, so, if there was such a thing as karma, and I don't believe there is, well, if there was, I would be pretty much 'set for life' in my spiritual soul, I guess...though I'm not...mainly because I don't  have a soul. I know that. 

I believe that I, when I encounter the transcendent in life, just appreciate the wonder of being a transient human being...and this is enough to fill me.

I recall at work one night the staff were worried that there was a prowler in the grounds, so I went out to 'check the perimeters' and one of my colleagues said: "Don't you want a torch? It's so dark out there..." and I replied, in a very Leslie Nielsen 'mock bravado' way...

"Look, honey, I've accompanied so many people, so many hundreds, to the point of their own deaths and the deaths of their fears, that it is the natural darkness that should be afraid of me."

That was probably the most humorous and arrogant thing I've ever said, off-the-cuff, in the moment...but, also the most honest.

My own extended 'near death experience' of last month where there was no fear, no anxiety, no light, no tunnel was a remarkable counterpoint for me in comparison with my life in general; so, from what I know of life on earth, and it ending, there really is nothing to fear. It's just so natural, whenever and however it happens.

My favourite quote from my Parents remains:

"We have made you neither of heaven nor of earth so that with freedom of choice and with personal honour, you may fashion yourself in life into whatever you prefer."

After this 'Life Lost and Devoted in Care' I am blinking and just looking around for the rest of my life, to see what joy is left for me.

So, after a life 'lost in care' I have not arrived at having a 'soul'and I doubt I could ever know what to do with one. I'm sure they are so very hard to keep clean... but the quirky warm arrogance is fully mine.

John.

 

Life is a Love Story. Love is a Life Story.

 

George Harrison:

"Life Goes On Within You and Without You"

Danny Boy - Sinead O Connor/Perfect

Oh Danny boy, the pipes,
the pipes are calling.
From glen to glen,
and down the mountain side.

The summer's gone,
and all the flowers are falling.
'Tis you, 'tis you
must go and I must bide.

But come ye back
when summer's in the meadow,
Or when the valley's hushed
and white with snow.

And I'll be here
in sunshine or in shadow.
Oh Danny boy, oh Danny boy,
I love you so.

But if you come,
and all the flowers are falling.
And I am dead,
as dead I might well be.

You'll come and find
the place where I am lying.
And kneel and say
an "Ave" there for me.

And I will hear,
though soft your tread above me.
And all my grave
will warmer sweeter be.

And you will bend
and tell me that you love me.
And I shall sleep
in peace until you come to me.

But if I live,
and should you die for Ireland,
Let not your dying thoughts
be just of me.

But say a prayer to God
for our dearest Ireland.
I know He'll hear
and help to set her free.

And I will take your pike
and place my dearest,
And strike a blow,
though weak the blow may be.

T'will help the cause
to which your heart was nearest
Oh Danny Boy, Oh, Danny boy
I love you so.

Van Morrison and Bob Dylan in Athens/Music History on a small hilltop

Van Morrison - Just like a woman (Bob Dylan) sott.ita.Good Version

Product Placement Hero

One of the best and most remarkable example of Marketing I've ever seen was just before the Beijing Olympics when the CEO of Lenovo (The Giant Chinese Computer Company that owns IBM) was answering questions on, from memory, CNN, regarding human rights issues in China, or so the interviewer thought...
In answer to a question about China's status in terms of it's human rights record, the CEO said:
"Well, just look at this new Lenovo laptop" He raised it up to the camera and gestured towards its fantastic design. "It's brilliant, its hi-tech, it's light, and it's only US$399 and it is in shops right now!

One of my great concerns regarding God is this...

It'd be great to be God and to create everything and design everything just the way you want it to be...but the thing that disturbs me with the notion of such a great and omnipotent Being is that when it comes to the Human Religions on Earth, we're all expected to give God money. I would think that if you were smart enough to create the Universe, then you probably had the capacity to have a budget, and stick to it without running out of money every week and making people give you more every week. What does he do? Blow it all on buying new hats?

Mind you, I guess he would have an extensive wine cellar and he'd have to keep topping that up...but really, to God, that shouldn't be an issue...Just a snap of the fingers and there's 25 crates of 1953 Grange Hermitage.

I'd be happy to be God anytime...and I think the role would suit me.

I wonder if he smokes Chungwah cigarettes...If I was God, I would. They're great! (Dearb me, another example of subtle Product Endorsement in a Spiritual discussion).

 

 

 

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Map of Asia according to Americans